Manifesto

In light of recent events I have been thinking a lot lately and school doesn't even start for another week. Ha but no really......I have been thinking about life. Watch out fellas, I'm about to get deep.

I have been alive for 20 years 7 months and 4 days ( and some hours and minutes). I could be gone from this life at any minute. I'm not trying to be morbid, it just honestly makes me think:

what have i done in my life that is worth anything??

have I made the most of every moment?

If I died today or tomorrow or even next week, would I look back and be happy with the life that I lived? I know that I am young and I still have time to live all my dreams, but what if I don't? What if today was my last day? This is coming across a little more depressing than I had intended. The truth is, I don't think I have lived my life as full as I could have. I don't think I have made the most of every single day.

This morning for instance I layed on the couch for an hour or so because I was too lazy to get up and get ready for work. But because I did that I had to rush to get ready and get to work on time. I don't want to spend my whole life in two different speeds: lazy and rushing. I want to take each moment at a nice pace and appreciate everything in this world. I don't want to spend another day taking anything for granted. 

I want to wake up every morning and fall to my knees and thank my Heavenly Father for another beautiful day that I get to spend on this earth with my wonderful husband. 

Watching TV is not expanding my life in anyway. I should be building skills and talents, I should be spending quality time with those I love. I should make each day, each hour, each minute, each second really count for something. I want to look back at the end of each day and feel happy and accomplished.

I don't want to waste another second doing something that doesn't mean anything!

So because of these new feelings, here is my personal manifesto.

I am a daughter of God.

I appreciate the small wonders of the world.

I take time to meditate.

I am bold.

I am strong.

Everyday is a chance for me to create something.

I am creative.

I spend my time with the people I love and cherish.

I strive to learn things that interest me.

I do not wait.

I am proactive.

I am responsible for my actions.

I do what I want because I want to, not because someone told me to.

I take the opinions of others as just that: an opinion.

I don't let anyone else rule my decisions except me.

Everyone is a child of God, which means not judging anyone no matter how different they may be.

I do not judge myself on the standards of others.

My best is good enough.

I am astonishing.

My body is a temple.

I do not waste time.

Every moment of my life is spent where a want to be doing what I want to do with the people I want to be with.

No one can force me to do otherwise.

I am powerful.

I do not regret my mistakes.

I learn from them. 

I am true to my emotions, not embarrassed by them.

I eat when I am hungry.

I find myself through dance.

I am in the world, not of it.

I am not my possessions.

I am wealthy through my knowledge.

I am rich through my love.

I am blessed beyond belief.

I look for people to serve.

I respect everyone.

I am not afraid of dying;

I am afraid of not having lived enough.

I am silly.

I am LOUD.

I feel.

I love.

The world is how I perceive it.

My view of the world is the one I have seen in person;

not in pictures.

I am an explorer.

I am an adventurer.

I am an artist.

I am a dancer.

I am an actress.

I am a lifelong student.

I am a friend.

I am Jocelyn Deon Malmfeldt Langford.